The Day I Decided to Fail

It has been awhile since I've blogged. School has been taking up the majority of my time this semester. I thought I could handle two classes but it seems that I have failed. Moments ago I just withdrew from one of my classes which sets back my goal of acquiring a degree. I've had to do some serious soul searching lately trying to decide it going forward with school is even worth the time. Most people tell me "don't give up" or "keep going" when all I want to say in return is "why". Do I go forth so I can promote at my job? It will take another 8 years to get to that place and within those 8 years and the time I dedicate to school, I spend less time with my daughter, weaken my home environment and struggle with my own competence. The only reason I have not quit completely is because there is about 2% of me that thinks I can do it. It will not take much to obliterate that 2%. I hear of superwomen at work that go to school full time, have 3 kids and work till their bones are numb. I hate to admit that I compare myself to them and ask myself daily, how come I can't do it. Disappointment in myself is the highest it has ever been and I can't help but feel that I have failed again. I'm angry with myself. How come I am failing and they are not? I've let myself down again.................